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Hannah
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Australia
I'm kind of weird. That's about it.

Current Residence: Australia
Favourite genre of music: Rock
Favourite photographer: None
Favourite style of art: Dada - though I don't practise it XD
Operating System: Windows 7
MP3 player of choice: Itunes
Shell of choice: A Turtle Shell
Wallpaper of choice: Whatever catches my fancy
Favourite cartoon character: Belphegor and Fran from KHR
Personal Quote: 'Have YOU ever licked a lamppost in winter? '
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So at the start of the year I had one friend and a million possibilities and hope that my life would be fuller at the end of the year.

Now I have no friends, feel highly insecure, paranoid and upset, my brother might have schizophrenia, my Dad had to have a heart operation, throughout the year my Mother had a broken leg, Dad also had a shoulder reconstruction. My other brother managed to finish his HSC, I've finished 4 university subjects and yet I feel strangely hollow with that accomplishment.


I talk to my psychiatrist about these things and for once that's not making me feel any better. I feel like an unwanted piece of sludge that should get cleaned away with the coming rain. I have achieved nothing of worth, the friends I wished for? They were given to someone else who is better than me. The love that I wanted? That also was received by someone better than me.

All I've done is prove to myself that I am a worse person than I ever realised I was before.

And no one gives a shit.

Dear God, why did I even try?
  • Mood: Sadness

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Harthwing Featured By Owner May 15, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Hello I don't know if you know me but I have been meaning to get in touch with you. Indeed I have taken in interest in your writing on Lunaescence having found it to be very good. I hope that in the near future you will continue to write more for I look forward to reading more of your stories. It has been my honor meeting you and I hope to speak to you again sometime soon.
sincerely,
~Harthwing
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naughtbutanillusion Featured By Owner May 15, 2012
Hey! Do you have the same name on Luna or a different one? I try to remember as many of my reviewers as possible - though I'm so scatter brained I barely keep up with everything I'm writing! Ha!

Thanks for reading my stuff, I'm glad you've enjoyed it. I'm definitely going to keep working on my stories, currently debating on reworking Proximity Effect, and trying to figure out what to put next in Genie? Genie!.

It's honour to have fans that love my work as much as you do, thank you for messaging me. It really did make my day.

Keep in touch!
Hannah
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Harthwing Featured By Owner May 16, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Hehe my name on Luna is Havenfire,
oh and if ever you want me to make you something out of digital art just ask you've probably already seen my profile so you must know that i love making art lol. other than that if need be you can join my growing group and become one of the 300 members there and post your art for others to see.
and don't you worry i'm keeping in touch lol
~Harthwing/aka Havenfire
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naughtbutanillusion Featured By Owner May 19, 2012
Sweet! I'm also a bit of an artist, though my medium is more pencils and ink right now. Don't really have a scanner so I don't post much of it.

It's a great collections of art and photos :D and I'll go ask to join your group now, it sounds awesome! Though I'm so sporadic in posting art its absolutely abysmal haha

Thanks for keeping in touch and future keeping in touch!
Hannah
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scholarwarrior-lad Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy birthday soon Hannah
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naughtbutanillusion Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2011
Thanks! Sorry I didn't see this sooner, I just got so caught up in university, it's been eating away my life XD
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scholarwarrior-lad Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Don't worry about it I can totally relate.
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naughtbutanillusion Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2011
That's good. God, uni has been... awful and kind of good.
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naughtbutanillusion Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2011
And happy birthday for tomorrow!
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